“It’s time to let go and stop holding on”

You know that quote “It hurts to let go, but sometimes it hurts more to hold on”

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That quote hits hard for me because I’m learning it the hard way. I thought it was better to hold on to things that hurt me like the past, the missing memories, the loss of loved ones and more. But now I have to learn to let it go and stop holding on to it.

I wish this year didn’t remind me of those things. I thought it would be those things would be out of my mind but it’s stuck in my head and its hurting my damn heart.

I don’t want this pain to last my whole life, I don’t want it to be hurting me much more than it already has..

I wish I could let it go and stop holding on to it.. I want to live free no more pain, hurt or grief but i can’t, that’s what’s hurting the most right now..

I don’t want my past or the grief to get the best of me. I don’t want to be the person who’s always putting people down and always getting mad over stupid shit. I don’t want to hurt the people I love because I’m hurting. I don’t want to take avenge of everyone. I don’t want to take everything that I gotten for granted. I want to forgive and forget the people who hurt me in my past but let it go and stop holding onto them for hurting and making me feel like this all the damn time.

I want someone to look up on me. I want to be the bigger the better person I can be. I just want to try to make everyone proud of me.

I want to forgive myself for always giving up on myself. I want to forgive myself for my mistakes and my actions. I want to forgive myself for always saying that I’m not good enough when I know I’m good enough.

I have to let it go and stop holding on to my past because I know I can do it.

2023 was a rough start but It won’t be for long 😊

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