This feeling in my chest

I got this feeling in my chest that something good is about to happen but then I got this other feeling in my chest that is telling me something bad is bound to happen sooner or later...

I just don't understand this feeling quite yet but im really sure that something bad or good is about to happen... sometimes I wish I could understand this feeling I'm feeling right...

a part of me is feeling hurt, pain, grief, broken, confused and emptiness and another part of me is feeling happy, proud, strong, good, amazing and proud.. I just wish I could understand this feeling I feel..

I don't feel like being hurt anymore and I don't feel like being sad anymore.. I just want to feel happy and a part of me is telling that something good and bad is about happen..

I just don't know what it is... I just wish it would come sooner than later but im anxious, scared, Shaky, upset, scared...

Hopefully this feeling will go away because I hate feeling like this... I'm praying for something good but I know it will turn into something bad..